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Warning: if its not yet June 4,2005 HALT! and come back when it already is =)

Hi rongie, if you've visited this site before it used to be black and white. Since its your birthday and i know you miss my old blog i'll make it green so it'll be more pleasurable as you read the poem after this er...letter as you may  call it. I made the poem for you. I hope you like it. Happy happy birthday!!!

By the way i'll give you a copy when i see you =)


A Story

Unknown you were to me, and the same I was to you
None of us ever dreamed this friendship would push through
I was just one of those people, you saw everyday in class
And you were the same thing for me, as each day would pass

For almost two years, this was how it was
You’d walk past me, both of us without a fuss
But one fateful day things suddenly changed
With a phone call, a text, but its not at all much strange

A summer passed, something came up which required much trust
I had to keep a secret, and keeping it’s what’s just
From there came friendship, as days and months went by
We were best friends before we knew it, and O how time could fly

Little quarrels we soon had but too quick they were to mend
Mood swings, misunderstandings name it they can sure be bent
No fight was ever stronger, no hurt that was too deep
No alibi we can conjure up, no secret we can keep

And now it’s been a year, amazing it all is
We didn’t think this would happen, but it has come to this
Don’t take it as an insult, wouldn’t have it any other way
To have you by my side, is an answer to what I’ve prayed

I thank you for always being there, with the things that we went through
No why’s, no but’s, you always cared and always knew what to do
Looking forward to deeper friendship that grows stronger everyday
Looking forward to more years with you, that God guide us I pray

I pray that God bless you in everything you do
In loving Him, your family, all that you hold true
In the path you take, in YFC and in your studies too
When with your friends, in activities, may God always be with you

You are such a blessing, to the people you have around
Your God-given talents make the best the very best of sounds
Keep on growing, and ever stay so pure
Along the path by which you take, His guidance is for sure

As I end this I would like to say, for you I’ll always be here
You’re loving friend, your confidant, name it you got it dear
You’re always in my heart of hearts, in here you have a place
You’ll be sure of that a hundred percent, and in a hundred different ways

I imagined it a day of flowers
Rosemary, lilac, jasmine, rose
Rays of sunshine come above me
In the tender breeze my eyes are closed

The crisp warm air turns to cold breeze
Sight of gray fills the sky
Leaves fall down the glass window
Mem'ries of yesterday pass us by

The hours that passed, the warm sunshine
Comes to a very peaceful end
The day is ending, its finally over
The last time line finally spent

And now i leave those all around me
Peaceful, calm, serene i go
The last moment with those i love
My casket, my life, my final show

This poem is about death. It is actually a description of a scene where in the casket is about to be lowered to the ground and its as if the person inside is still conscious of what is happening. The person is appreciating the surroundings and somehow saying goodbye to everything and everyone around. It is actually a poem with a twist because all the descriptions only make sense in the end like the line "leaves fall down the glass window" which actually was the glass window of a coffin. This poem is one of my favorites. Its not because I'm into death or anything like that. I just like how the poem unfolded and the surprise in the end.

When all my efforts seem to have no worth
When my expectations are thrown into dirt
When i feel down and on the ground
When I'm going in circles round and round

When i have been where i was before
When mistakes I've made are tossed back to shore
When i feel so useless and i want to hide
When i can't express the pain inside

When i want to cry and i want to shout
When my heart is filled with nothing but doubt
When I'm weak and bent and i have no strength
When my troubles are of unending length

When I've fallen down upon my knees
I find myself crying at His feet
His arms i feel surrounding me
So warm, comforting He rescued me

He lifted me up i His embrace
I began to see His glorious face
I realized in weakness He strengthened me
With His shining light i now can see

I can very much relate to this poem at different instances in my life. I actually wrote this when I felt like i was such a failure and like the line "mistakes I've made are tossed back to shore" where in my failures don't seem to get off my back and i find myself at that position once again. I think many people can relate to this as well. During these times when you think you've squeezed all that you've got and still you're not succeeding and no one seems to understand where you're at, the best thing to do is talk to God. In my experience the sweetest time for that i felt God's embrace was when i felt that i was at my lowest. I felt so relieved and at peace knowing that He's there and no matter what tomorrow brings He is in control. He's just waiting for us to run to Him like a little child and He'll welcome us like a Father does to His child. Try it too, indeed you'd feel rescued.

Sometimes I wonder about where love had gone
We shared something special but now it is gone
Each and every look so weak and so blank
I can't say i love you I can't be that frank

My lonely heart is missing the mem'ries we've shared
I wish we're together but its just not fair
I long to be with you, i wish i could stay
Its like a thousand years, missing you everyday

The love that we had, treasured here in my heart
Locked here inside although we're apart
This special feeling, forbidden as it is
Letting go is needed but don't forget this

I'll be loyal and faithful, my heart is for you
Will never go away till my life is through
It's been a long time but what else can I say
Goodbye to your touch, all that's left is to pray

In the near future I'll wait for that day
When again we'll be together, stay strong come what may
But as for the moment though hard for you and me
Wipe my tears away and in silence love thee

This poem was originally written for my ex but let me emphasize that that was a long time ago and today my sentiments have changed. I guess i don't believe in the old cliche' "first love never dies" because mine did (Let me just say, that it wasn't the person that died but it was my love for him that did die, just to make things clear). It was the first poem on which i poured my heart and soul. I hope you guys like it.

DAYUHAN
Nakita ko ang iyong ngiti
Sa di kalayuan
Naakit ako at natukso
Ngunit sa lugar na to ako'y dayuhan

Nahahalina sa mga bagay
Na di ko maaangkin
At ngayon ako'y nanghihina
Nahuhulog sa isang tingin

Ibang lugar, ibang estado
ang namumuo sa isip ko
Ninanais, nangangarap
Na marating natin ito

Ngunit alam ko di maaari
Ito'y hanggang asam na lang
Dahil dayuhan ako dito
Mundo ng puso'y sa iba lang
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This one is in tagalog because i felt patriotic. No just kiddin, i just wanted to write it in Filipino because the ideas came to me in that language. And maybe keo's comment influenced me to make an exception and post something thats tagalog. Now you may be wondering who the poems talkin about and who it is for. Well, its for everyone who feels this way. Don't lose hope. And besides its not only in the world of love that one finds success and happiness. Try focusing your energy on other things that will affect your life greatly. Things that are worthwhile like God, studies, family, friends, self-improvement, among other things. Everything has its own time and when the time comes that the world of love has opened its doors, you are already a complete person with so much to offer to whom you'll share your heart to.